...but never, never yams today. Or is it Jam? ;) I haven't seen Alice In Wonderland in far too long. Anyhow, I discovered yams this week. I think they might be my new favourite veggie. In fact, I have a pan of them in the oven right now, tossed with a little bit of olive oil, garlic, basil and oregano.... mmm.
My roommate has gone home for the evening, Crystal and Di are in the Bahamas, so I find myself sitting here in my house by myself, at a loss for what to do. I have become so accustomed to always being with other people that when I have an evening to myself, I feel lost. No-- more than that -- I feel as if somehow, I'm being left out of any fun that's happening anywhere in Hamilton. Gone is the list of things that I want to do but never have the time when other people are around-- call someone I haven't spoken to in a long time, sit and write random verses and passages, work on my scrapbook from England, play the guitar.... Gone is the memory of this past weekend-- games on Friday night with some awesome people, breakfast on Sat morning at Ikea with more awesome people, wedding reception in Peterborough for Jo and Steve, volleyball Sunday with more awesome people and goodbye party for James sun night... It's not as if I don't have any sort of a social life or amazing friends, so why does an evening at home alone intimidate me?
I think that my perception of it somehow must be quite off-- actually, I know that it is, I'm just not sure why. (Excuse my while I psycho-analyse myself for a moment) I really need to look at an evening alone less as being abbandoned and more and given a chance to breathe - goodness knows sometime in the near future I'm sure I'll be praying for it. While I won't be doing everything the whole semester with the same group of people, as was the case last semester, I'm sure that I'll have company for almost everything that I do regardless. That being said, I look forward to this semester, and I'm thankful that I'm so blessed to have so many good friends to spend all of my time with! I can't get over how many incredible people are in my life, and I just keep meeting more, even in the summer when there's not many folks around to begin with! (Some, who are staying around and I'll get the chance to continue hanging out with them, some that are moving away... :( )
So while I'm sure that there are many wonderful and fun things that are happening tonight, I think I"m good with just sitting down with my bowl of yams, pondering my last day at work, and doing a bit of writing.